Fuck drooling.

I realised im blogging whenever i'm not fine.Emotionally speaking obviously.

Well,there are exceptions-but not this one.

Cause now,im blogging in order not to grab a knife and start stabbing random things.

Well,let's start from the beggining.

You fell hard for a twat.For 2 years let's say.

In these two years time you make EVERYTHING possible ,in order to see him.

Fine.

And he doesnt give a shite.

(kinda)Fine.

And then,poof!You magically get over him.

You dont care whether he's got a girlfriend,you dont care whether he fucks the waitress after singing to her"Shoplifters of the world unite",you dont even care whether he's alive or dead.

Fine.

And then,suddendly,you wake up one day(probably at the wrong side of your bed)and you start falling for him again.AFTER A HALF FUCKIN YEAR.

You start remembering that feelling-which you haven't felt again since then,with anybody else-you start remembering those smells from back then,and you start realising you'll never,EVER love anybody the way you loved him.

(NOT) fine.

....And you also start realising that this is a hard period you're goin through,with a lot of studying and loads of boring stuff to do,but you say"ok,he'll come on July,and im gonna see him,and everything is gonna be ok",and you get by with this thought.

(SERIOUSLY NOT) FINE.

TADAAAA!The worst part is when you discover-or maybe REALISE-the fact he's got a girlfriend,and that yaaaay,he's gonna bring her with him.

And then all your dreams fall apart.

Yes,they do.

Cause she's everything you wanna be when you grow up,

she's your female soulmate

she's the absolute future you.

and now you cant even blame him for falling for her,

you cant even say something bad about her cause you would be lying.

Plus,you wanted to tell him you love him,but now you can't.

oh fuck that.you would never do it anyways...

No,really,im not jealous.

Do i look jealous?

Do i sound jealous?

Fuck.I am.

I really am.