Pumpkin Soup

Goodmorning beautiful world!
("beautiful"world?ok,im bipolar for sure)
Anyway,i have a tendency not to have fun on days like christmas,new year's eve,easter etcetc....i dont know why,i guess i become extremely sensitive on those days and i just cant enjoy myself.
But thats ok,cause i got to eat my very first delicious pumpkin soup!

At Christmas eve,we went to a family friend's house and i took a photo of the christmas decoration they had in the elevator.I guess that this^ is not enough to make me feel the christmas spirit.

 

 on our way to christmas "fun".

 Sky wasn't festive enough.Why should i be,then?

And all this thing makes me wonder

Where can i find the christmas spirit?

Some things-most things

simply dont change.

 Therefore,dont blame me if there's no Christmas spirit,

if nothing changes on christmas except for our weight,

and the songs we listen on the radio.

Yep,overrated is the word you're looking for. 

i hope i didnt destroy your christmas fantasies :)

MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYONE

 

My Almost-Christmas-Eve

It's christmas-almost-eve!and the tragic thing is that i dont have any christmas pictures to post,as we decided not to decorate our house this year.tragic story,really.i dont want to talk about it,cause im supposed to be happy,cause its almost christmas and everybody else is happy.or just pretends to be....

                                  

So this earring is actually the only proof in our house that it's Christmas.

Sad.

And thank god(who?whatever..)it snowed a bit.

JUST a bit. 

 

 

What else?oh,i went to the Voyage Limpid Sound the other day. they were absolutely great!

the plain truth is,i've been waiting for a proper gig for months,so i told my parents"please,please,please,let me let me let me,let me go to the gig this time" and i persuaded 'em pretty easily.

And YES,this gig was a more than proper one.

 

 

 they've got a thing i cant explain.

a thing that most of the bands dont.

 

....So,i guess that catching myself thinking about what christmas present i want santa to bring me is,to say the least,dissapointing.
and you know what is even more dissapointing?
The fact that i cannot find one.

Maybe,i said maybe,i could be overly happy with a red scarf.
and him wearing it :)

 

2ets,how i love you!

Well,i guess i was in love with the same guy for a long time.isn't it high time that i moved on?
 i mean,come on!i have the right to fall in love again,havent i?

.................................................................

not with someone as old though.
duh,i think i've got a psychological problem or somethin.
i always tend to fall in love with older men.and not just older.
wayyyyyy older.meaning like,10 years older than me!god!
and no,i am definitely not lacking the father figure.
no,i have a perfectly normal family life.
no,my parents dont abuse me.
NO,I DONT HAVE CHILDHOOD TRAUMAS!
...so what's wrong with me anyway?i seem to know what i dont have
btu not what i actually have!




Anyway,that other boy is great.
i dont know him very well,but he's still great in my head.
plus that he was willing to make a duet with me in order not to be too embarassed.


Ok,ive got to go now.
its twelve o clock.
yeah,better go now.
oh,and tommorow is a big day.
thats it.im goin.
and im happyyyy!
for now.

Questions with(out) answers

hello!
Just for informational reasons,id like to say that right now,
i listen to Moz.(definition:i think im gonna cry right NOW.)

Well,enough of my mood.
As I said before,while listening to Morrissey i realised this:


That the most annoying questions for me arent those that dont have an answer,but the ones that have made me wonder why i know the answer but simply cannot accept it.The ones that make me keep asking again and again the same question,waiting for a different answer.

a more acceptable one.

But then again,why should you care about which type of question i find annoying?
Never mind.A piece of useless information never harmed anyone.
(although MY kind of useless information may:
                a)drive you nuts(if youre not already)
                b)make you wanna blow your mind up immediately
                c)laugh perpetually,because you've never heard such a big bullshit in your life)


Now,talking about useless information,
you should REALLY listen to Morrissey or The Smiths.
just be careful enough not to listen to them when you feel shity!

And dont say i didnt warn you that this kind of music is so wonderfully powerful and dangerous that can keep you locked in your closet for hours,cause you'll be fuckin lying!

im not...

Looking through the window

i shoulda been studying

but im not.


Listening to Mystery Jets

i shoulda been dancing

but im not.


Missing you like the old days

i shoulda been crying

but im not.


Checking out your photos

i shoulda been melting

but im not.


So what the hell is going wrong with me?
And dont you even DARE saying you dont know.

de-ce-mbe-r-r-r-r-r

Haha,hello!
i tried to follow a friend of mine the other day and i ended up following myself!oh...never mind!the worst thing is that i have no idea on how to UNfollow me,but i guess that ill figura it out.Im still a newbie,what do you expect from me?
ANYWAY,i'm fine now.
Fine,fine,fine,fine,fine.

EXCEPT for the fact that i have a runny nose and im sniffing constantly.Its nervewracking.


that's toilet paper in case you wonder.we didnt have tissues,although the super market is just around the corner.ahhhh,boredom will kill us all!

Ummm...i wanted to say something more but i forgot...ah!now i remember!
Dont you think that its really annoying and useless and pointless and everything -less,really,that people are online at chat without having the intention to talk to you?im sayin this cause i've suffered,and suffered,hours and days and months and,GOD,years(!)in front of facebook chat,just looking at this guy that was online but he never talked to me.EVER!i thought-i hoped-that by looking at his name beeing online i'd make him in a silly supernatural and telepatheic way to talk to me,but it never works.The good thing is that yes,he talk does to me from times to times.but thats honestly not enough for me.Occasionally is not enough.
But then again,it shoulda been...




oh,i almost forgot!its winterrrrr!

*Hem-hem*im NOT gonna make a to-do list for NYE.

I AM gonna do a christmas wishlist though ;)
Santa,beware!