what are you gonna do with him?you fool...
what are you gonna do with him?WHAT?
maybe nothing.thats what youve always been doing all those 17 years of your existence.NOTHING.

my thoughts occupied my head
i could hear those voices screaming"what are you gonna do?what?"
actually,thats all i could hear.those voices yelling at me.
my lips were dried by the air and my eyes wet from tears of desperation.
i want to give up!please,please let me surrender!dont torture me anymore,ive had enough...
thats enough sorrow for someone who doesnt reply to my messages,for someone who ignores me from times to times.
i know that even if i tell him he's gonna skahe his head and tell me"sorry".
but truth is,he wouldnt be sorry at all.that is what is gonna hurt the most.

i need something intense.

for a weird reason u made me bored and tired and i want to move on and fall in love again,but this time i want it to be intense and real.

i want to feel it running through my veins and feel my heart beating her way out of my chest.
you dont give me these feelings anymore.
all you ever give me lately is the feeling of an unfinished task that must be finished quickly,or a debt i have to pay.
i need someone to make me cry again with passion and tention.
i need someone to make me listen to Moz and make me spend hours crying on the floor and i need someone who'll make me lock mysekl up insidw my wardrobe and cry hapilly there..
i need someone to warm my day with his smile,to make my world lighten up.
where has love gone?
i know you never saw me that way,although i saw a glimpse of love in your eyes some months ago...
but why do you feel so unessecary to me now?
like a disease you suck my energy up in no time,but you never did give me anything worthy back.
actually,what annoys me most is that ive stopped caring so much about you.
i want you to be my friend,but im pretty sure we dont really match.we're so different and i will never get to understand your way of thinking...why hadnt i realised it from the very start?
i need something fresh to my life.
i want to fall and feel the pain all over again cause im so tired of scratching old wounds.
i want to look at somebody and know for sure that my love is stronger from Teru's love for Kurosaki*...



*(ive been reading quite a lot of mangas lately,so ive been seriously affected by those intense love stories...truth is,that this was the actual reason that made me realise that i dont bare those intense love feelings for someone anymore and got me a bit depressed,which consequently led to this really cheesy post.anyway,Teru and Kurosaku are the main characters of a great manga called"Dengeki Daisy".they are deeply in love with eachother but they wont admit it.)