just a different kind

I want love, but it's impossible
A man like me, so irresponsible
A man like me is dead in places
Other men feel liberated

I can't love, shot full of holes
Don't feel nothing, I just feel cold
Don't feel nothing, just old scars
Toughening up around my heart

But I want love, just a different kind
I want love, won't break me down
Won't brick me up, won't fence me in
I want a love, that don't mean a thing
That's the love I want, I want love

I want love on my own terms
After everything I've ever learned
Me, I carry too much baggage
Oh man I've seen so much traffic

So bring it on, I've been bruised
Don't give me love that's clean and smooth
I'm ready for the rougher stuff
No sweet romance, I've had enough


so yeah,lately i've been up and down.
still i managed to realise that i need to meet new people and do things i wouldn't before and stop being so gloomy and stop caring so much about things.
i just want to live a bit carelessly.
i want to try to be someone i wasn't before.
i want to discover different sides of myself,like the happy side and the easygoing side.

what i mean to say is that i will always be me,whether i want it or not.
i will just try to take life less seriously,be more spontainious,change the way i see things.
and you know why?
cause im bored of this.
this whole thing.
running after people who dont care about me,
running away from people who care about me,
running and running again as if something is chasing after me.

its a good time for a change.