My fish is lonely,and so am I.
My bathroom's gone and there's a huge,grey,depressing hole instead.
My studying is non existent,and so is my internet connection.
And i think i love nobody right now,so this aint gonna be a love post.
*WHAT A RELIEF!*

I wanna focus on the future for now.
I wanna dream about me in a couple of years,when i'll be famous and happy and artsy and happy and happy and...well,you get it.
I just wanna be HAPPY in the future.
-i also wanna meet a man who's not gonna lie to my bloody face but THIS IS NOT A LOVE POST-

But seriously?
I dare to make future plans while knowing that all of my previous future plans failed blatantly?
Oh,you're being SUCH an optimist again dear....
What makes me hope that the years to come will be better than this one?
*oh,maybe the fact that those 3 years couldnt be worse?just sayin...*

Anyway the good thing is that this horrible,TERRIBLE feeling of lonelyness has dissapeared-just for now,dont get too excited-and has been replaced by a"enjoy every moment in your life"feeling.
I actually feel like i have one month of life everytime i wake up in the morning,so i enjoy EVERYTHING,even the boring parts of routine,even the sense of a pencil between my fingers.
i guess that this isn't bad at all...
i suspect that its just a desperate hope to fill the emptyness in my life.
to give some meaning to it.

Cause my life's been meaningless for too long,dont you think?