I hate myself for loving you.

You just wanted to get away,didnt you?
You just wanted to get away from her and all the memories you had together.

But i should expect it.
It wasnt your fault after all,you just loved her as i love you.

I had never thought about you with a girlfriend.
I could never imagine that someone else could have the pleasure to touch you,to kiss you,to fuck you.
For a naive reason i kept believing that you were mine.
I honestly dont know what i was thinking.

But now i know how bloody lucky she was.
I know that she was more than bloody lucky,actually.
And i also know that i can't compete her.
She's older,she's beautiful and she knows you better.

And now all i can do is feel bad cause i know that she was by your side and she left you.
And even though i cannot even imagine the reason why,all i know is that i wish i was her.
Plus,i feel like a REAL loser.

I did everything for you and all you do is ignore me.

But have you ever felt this feeling that develops into an urge?

An urge to yell"I F*ING HATE MYSELF FOR LOVING YOU AFTER ALL THESE SHIT YOU'VE DONE TO ME!"